I'm Mad

I'm mad that you love me
I'm mad that I love you
I'm mad, not because of the love
but what the love makes me do
It makes me controlled, all powered by you

I'm manipulated
I'm vulnerable
I'm weak
I'm not me

Loving you makes me hate me
Loving you makes me feel like I don't know me
Loving you is destroying me

Is it because I got so lost in you that I lost me

I'm searching for myself, your not helping me to be....

I'm longing to look in the mirror and have acceptance for who I be

So really I'm not mad at you cause you love me, and I love you. Really truly

I'm mad cause I don't love me.